Saturday, December 26, 2009

I can feel it

It’s easy to leave me…
I have to assume that because
Everyone does, like I don’t
Even fucking matter to anyone.
It hasn’t happened yet with you
But it’s coming
I can feel it.
I can feel you slowly pushing and pulling away
I can feel you really seeing me in a different way
I can feel you not wanting me anymore
I can feel you trying to move away
I can feel it…
Please make me feel something different…
Something that I haven’t felt before
Or something that I’ve felt before,
But make it last longer
Please.
Please prove me wrong.
Make me feel different,
Forever…
I really do love you, please feel it...

Merry Christmas!!! ^^

Okay, first of all, Merry Christmas to you guys reading this :) Hope you guys enjoy it a lot ^^


As some of us celebrate Christmas.. Just to have the fun of it.. And i guess, some of you guys doesn't really know what does Christmas really means..

me, as a Christian. We know that on the 25th of December is the day where Jesus is born in Bethlehem..


John 1:1-5:

1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

2He was with God in the beginning.

3Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.

4In him was life, and that life was the light of men.

5The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.

And it continues in John 1:10-14:

10He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him.

11He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him.

12Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—

13children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.

14The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.

The same message of God stepping into history is found in the Christmas carols that people sing at Christmas.

Christmas carols

Here’s the best one, “O, Holy Night“, and it says:

O holy night! The stars are brightly shining.
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.

Now look at “Hark! The Herald Angels Sing“

Hark! The herald angels sing,
“Glory to the newborn King!
Peace on earth and mercy mild,
God and sinners reconciled.”



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Here's some stuff i found in the internet... :)

"What's the meaning of christmas??

More than the beautiful decorations, the lights, gifts and the good food on the table, Christmas is a birthday. The very Creator of Earth came to us as a child!

Here is the how the Bible records it:

"Now in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a city in Galilee called Nazareth, to a virgin engaged to a man whose name was Joseph, of the descendants of David; and the virgin's name was Mary. And coming in, he said to her, "Greetings, favored one! The Lord is with you." But she was very perplexed at this statement, and kept pondering what kind of salutation this was.

The angel said to her, "Do not be afraid, Mary; for you have found favor with God. "And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall name Him Jesus." He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David; and He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and His kingdom will have no end."

Mary said to the angel, "How can this be, since I am a virgin?"

The angel answered and said to her, "The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; and for that reason the holy Child shall be called the Son of God." Luke 1:26-35

"…In those days a decree went out from Caesar Augustus, that a census be taken of all the inhabited earth. This was the first census taken while Quirinius was governor of Syria. And everyone was on his way to register for the census, each to his own city.

Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the city of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and family of David, in order to register along with Mary, who was engaged to him, and was with child.

While they were there, the days were completed for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son; and she wrapped Him in cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn." Luke 2:1-7

This anniversary is inimitable because of Who Jesus is, but also for the reason that what was prophesied about Him thousands of years before His birth, came true this very night. The prophecies fulfilled in Jesus’ life were not a few, there were over 300 prophecies that all fulfilled in His life. From the time of His birth to the way He would die, crucified, Christ has lived them all.

Now to come back to today’s reality let’s take a look at you, yes at you. Think about this: imagine that all your good friends decided to throw a great party for your birthday, they do let you know because you are so busy and they want to make sure you show up, so, on Saturday at 6 p.m. you must be there! Right, the weekend arrived and elegant, joyful and expecting a great party, you knock at the door of one of your friend’s apartment.

No one seems to hear …well you ring the doorbell, because you realize the music is a bit loud and they might not hear, it is after all the place where your celebration takes place …you wait but…nothing. Knock, knock, ring, ring and almost 30 minutes have passed and they seem to have a great time but no one opened the door for you!

How in the world? This party is for you after all, isn’t it? After a little while the laughter stops of a minute and full of hope, you think they finally heard but…no, it was the champagne glasses clink to make a toast and you hear your name "to our good friend …" Oh, but you are not even in there! How can they do this to you?

After getting tired of waiting you depart…none of your friends called to check why you didn’t come to the party, their phones are off... it goes without saying that …nobody cared. Disappointed and broken hearted you arrive home…unbelievable! Your birthday celebration without you, the celebrated one! And they say they are your friends too…

It is painful when we apply this story to ourselves but …this happens every Christmas. There are so many people who celebrate Christmas without Jesus as their guest! Let’s invite Jesus in our hearts this Christmas and may we really have Him as The most important guest in our homes this year! He brings the true meaning to your Christmas and your life will also be filled with deep joy as long as you have Him in your heart! Once you know Him, you realize you can’t live without Him! "









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"And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

And the angel said unto them,

Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

LUKE 2:8-14 "


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Jesus (also called Christ which means king or Messiah) was born in Israel 2000 years ago. Modern civilization marks his birth by dividing time B.C. (before Christ) and A.D. (Anno Domini - or the year of our Lord). For his first thirty years, Jesus lived a traditional Jewish life, working as a carpenter. During this time, all of Israel was under Caesar's Roman dictatorship, including Bethlehem, where Jesus was born, and Nazareth, where he was raised.
In his thirties, Jesus began his public teaching and display of recorded miracles, yet still never travelled more than 200 miles from his birthplace. Over a three year period, despite his efforts to keep a low profile, Jesus' reputation spread nation wide. The Roman governors and rulers of Israel's provinces and the leaders of the Jewish people (the religious counsels) took note of him. Jesus' key messages included:

-God loves you and is with you
-Love one another
-Immense value of each person

Good news: kingdom of God has come to earth
Reality of judgment to heaven or hell
God forgives those who ask
Many have asked "Who is Jesus Christ?" Jesus' most controversial act was that he repeatedly claimed to be God, which was a direct violation of the Jewish law. Therefore the religious leaders asked the Roman government to execute him. In each of several official trials, the Romans found that he was not guilty of breaking any Roman law. Even the Jewish leaders recognized that other than Jesus' claim to be God, Jesus followed the Jewish law perfectly. Still the religious leaders, using the argument of political disfavor, persuaded Pilate, a Roman governor of the Southern province of Israel, to authorize an execution.
Jesus was brutally tortured and then hung by his hands, which were nailed to a horizontal wooden beam (cross). This method of execution restricted the airflow to his lungs, killing him in three hours. However, according to more than 500 witnesses, Jesus returned from the dead three days later, and over the next 40 days journeyed in both the southern and northern provinces of Israel. To many, this was conclusive proof that Jesus' claims to be God were real. Then Jesus returned to Jerusalem, the city where he was recently executed, and according to witnesses, he left the earth alive by rising up into the sky.
As a result of these miraculous events, the number of his followers increased dramatically. Only a few months later in that same city of Jerusalem one record states that some 3000 new followers were added in a single day. The religious leaders responded by trying to stomp out Jesus' followers. Many of these people chose to die rather than deny their belief that Jesus was truly God.
Within 100 years, people throughout the Roman empire (Asia Minor, Europe) became followers of Jesus. In 325 AD, the following of Jesus, Christianity, became the official religion of the Roman Emperor Constantine. Within 500 years, even Greece's temples of Greek gods were transformed into churches for followers of Jesus. Although some of Jesus' messages and teachings were diluted or miscommunicated through the expansion of a religious institution, Jesus' original words and life still speak loudly for themselves.









- Wish you guys a very Merry Christmas once again =) -

You were never worth it...

We both understood it as soon as we met,
Your smile- something i cant easily forget,
Our eyes spoke words our lips could not,
You entered my heart- my only weak spot,
Even at long distance you had me captured,
My mind spinning with thoughts enraptured,
Time passed frivolously as only it can,
Winter changed to Spring and the longing began.

I waited feverishly for our next meeting,
Time with you i treasured no matter how fleeting,
Our courting progressed at an endless pace,
I yearned for our first kiss and your sweet embrace,
And as i lay on your chest watching the stars,
I knew the only love i'd ever need was ours,
Finaly, after months of anxious waiting on both parts,
Our lips touched- creating a collision of two hearts.

A blissful period of happiness was what we created,
The mere mention of your name and my soul elated,
Those summer months of romance, passion and amour,
Left my body screaming declarations of adore,
My whole being shone bright in unbelievable bliss,
That was untill you returned home with a last goodbye's kiss,
Yet, i knew as you'd promised, you would come back to me soon,
But still i felt like a dark winters night without its resplendent moon.


And now, only a few short months have passed,
I had no idea you could move on that fast,
And while my heart lies lifeless upon the ground,
Your out screwing her around,
Nothing iv'e ever felt has hurt like this,
I still dream about our very first kiss,
But, this is life; heartbreaks what you sign up for,
And I know in time i'll heal, and learn to trust in love once more.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

2009 end of year holidays...

I've got say that this time holiday's gonna be the worst holiday ever... there's so many things happens..first, my parents found out about me & him.. second, i'm moving school to penang, Dalat.. my parents just told on the 23rd of nov.. when they told me, i was like WHAT???! seriously, ur gonna move me somewhere else without me agree wif it???! =.= & i cant say goodbye properly to all my friends (which sucks) =__= third, i have to cancel my bday party T__T >_< okay, as what i've heard from people around me.. Long Distance Relationship isn't easy to maintain it.. most of it end up breaking up & stuff... Haih =/ why the hell so many bad stuff happen to me??? =.= im so freaking unlucky!!! =| zzz... well gonna come back to iis for a day i guess.. forc my mom earlier.. :S thats for today i guess, nites...!!!

Ps: im already missing u guys now.. especially *HIM* =/ take care (^^,)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

SICK ><

bleh, cant go school for 2 days... >< so darn bored staying at home =.= but well at least could sms HIM :) hahha.. amazingly, he got the same sickness same me x) lol.. had bad cough n bad soar throat =_=" + flu.. wtf man? >_<" zzzzzzzzz... watever la...



wish he will get well soon ;)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

JJ & Meru! ^^






















Thats all the picture i've gt so far... there's lot more ;) haha...

Sunday, September 6, 2009

First Week Of School

Monday....

Went out to JJ wif Dula, Daniella, and Elliot.. feels diff whn going out nt wif the same group =PP Daniella n I went to every Bakery Shop to buy cake for dula.. At last we ended in one shop behind JJ =P looks nice n cheap xDD
I jz remembered after buying it that dula's fasting >< how smart is that? --" lol.. we directly went to imax to meet dula n eliot.. saw Maverick's group passing by imax xD and all of a sudden Jono came to Imax =P n called me "babi hutan" =.="


-to be continue... hv to go nw ==

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Open Your Heart - Westlife

you guys should really go and listen to this songs.. its like really meaningful..


the lyrics goes like this....

"I didn't mean to let you down
You have to believe it
I don't know what went through my mind
But now I can see

That I waited too long
To tell you how much it matters
Just to be right here with you
But I couldn't think of anything better
I should have told you so

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And i'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

I'll try to make it up to you
I want you to know
Baby I swear that I'll be true
And never let go
If I waited too long
To tell you how much it matters
Just to be right here with you
But I couldn't think of anything better
I should have told you so

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And i'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

We could relive this pain and sorrow
But we better do it in time
Start over here and save tomorrow
I wanna make you mine

Open your heart with a chance
And I'll be here forever
Open your heart and I'll care
And I will make you understand
Oh baby,
If you open your heart
To love me once again

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And I'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again"


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhJrhmxthUE


well i guess some of you know why is this really meaningful to me T__T

Friday, August 28, 2009

okay.. lets start from last saturday... after piano tution, directly went home to pack my bag for abbe's farewell sleepover.. Abbe come fetch us at around 12:15pm sumthin.. MR BEAN CAR!!! =P hahha.. she came fetch us with her Yellow Mr Bean Car =) preety awesome =D we went to jj 1st to buy some sushi, milk and fetch elliot from jj.. after we arrive at abbe's hse we went to her room and watch some movies.. watch "Bring It on " and "Bring It On 4"
... decided to start cooking for early dinner.. abbe, eleanor and i plan to cook pasta with bacon, smash potato, etc... cant really remember... well, it was a good time thou.. hvent got to cook for quite some time.. we finish cooking and everything, we directly call the guys to come out of the room and eat.. it taste really good i've got to say the least :)too bda din take the pic of it TT... we left some food for mel thou.. she got her tt.. so yea.. we still got left sushi.. elliot gt an idea to start a game called "numbers" the game is like this.. there's one person holdinga phone wif a number she/he wrote it there.. we hv to guess the number.. if we get the number we hv to eat wt they ask u to eat.. its kinda like a dare i guess... imagine, a sushi wif lots of wasabi, soy ketchup, salt, pepper and green paprika mixed together and eat it in one mouth :S im so unlucky that i got to eat one of it.. bleh.. my face turns really red =PP lol.. cant stop drinking =P ahah..mel hvent arrive yet thou.. so dicided to go back to abbe's room and watch "White Chicks"... umm let say 30 mins after that mel arrive.. == really late eh? haha.. mel, eleanor, and me whn webcaming wif kevin koo... nice thou.. bt too bad his webcame broke down.. so yea.. Suddenly without knowing.. Abbe's cousin came.. the whole hse was so pack of ppl... abbe gt no idea too that they'r coming for a sleepover... this time its kinda different.. the guys slept in another room and girls in abbe's room.. well... yea.. cant fit everyone in abbe's room... we hv a walk to subin's hse at around 9 pm.. awesome ;) hvent done tat since moving to malaysis.. spent like 40 mins in his hse.. hha.. mel, elaenor and i play around =P umm throwing pillows? =P ahha.. after we went back.. the girls dicided to whn up to the guys room... well hv some talk and stuff =) interesting talk haha.. xPP michael broom's gonna be at abbe's hse at 12am.. directly bcak from uk.. he arrived like 12:30 or so.. we bath around that time too =P haha.. wow, damn freezing wei == we went back downstairs to watch "Baby on Board".. nice movie ;) ahha... there'r some perve part thou xPP i got really sleepy after that movie.. so yea.. go to sleep =D hah.. DAMN, i cant imagine that the girls hv to sleep one room with the abbe's dog.. im like... WERD??! >< the dog keep going around me --" i close my whole body n get to sleep... haha.. my eyes cant open anymore... Next morning, i oke up the earliest, 9 am ==" so early.. thn mel, my sis and last abbe.. =P ahha.. eat Nasi Lemak and fried chicken for breakfast.. YUM!! =) we watch "Snake on a Plane" watch 3 time ady xP after that we all went back.. a reall tiring day from saturday == directly went yo sleep after arrive home =P


(this was done by Bryan n Elliot i think ) =P










Monday....

Its our Piano Theory Exam day.. Get ready like around 7 sumthing... my Piano teacher arrive at around 8: 30 sumthing.. whn to SMJK. Yuk Choy
to have our exam.. its a big skool, i've gt to say. old thou.. At 9:10 we gt to enter the examination hall and find our sits.. surprisingly, im sitting just behind HuiBen =P ahha.. he's also in Grade 2.. =P damn! a mCfreaking hot guy sit next to me.. i think he's a korean.. my sis said the same thing aswel =P haha.. i finish my exam in 30 mins where else the time for my exam is 2 hours... just handed in my paper and leave the room.. wait kinda long for my sis to finish.. OMG!! we went to the toilet and its like EWWWWW!!!! dirty much.. == went back around 12 smtng... zzzz.. whn to sleep again =P ahha.. at 2 pm.. afriena came over to my hse to buy year 8 books... " She always kill me in skool" afriena said infront of her parents n my grandma >< too smart == ahha.. after she went bcak.. came jia jen's sms... he told me tat he's going HK... so yea.. just gonna say.. Enjoy and Hv fun in HK =) take care xD haha...








NITEZ =D

Friday, August 21, 2009

FaceBook Games... =P

hmm... okay... just going around in FB... well, at least found some nice games there...





if u are interested in this game, u can go to this link:



these are some screenshots of the game....








=)

Monday, August 17, 2009

When to school today to buy for nxt term books.. gotta wake up at 7 sumting --" duno why thou... wow... damn creepy whn i saw all the Y10 books.. effing tick wei... 2 books out pf stocks.. accounting and cie bio =.= 1st parents i saw whn came in there was Maverick's mom.. others duno xPP... thn weiwen's mom came.. & she was like smilling at me.. i was like.. okay... i noe her.. but where? >< whn she said to me.. weiwen is in the car.. thn ony i remember its weiwens mom =PP lol.. how forgetful i am =P hahah..

-no acounts book yet.. out of stock (the admin said) =P


Another probs...

cant go out anywhere due to the spread of H1N1... canceled 3 plans for the whole 2 weeks left of hols... >< annoying.. but at least can go friends hse =) ahha.. A friend of mine cousin sister n the mother got the H1N1 ady.. well.. i was kinda shock whn i heard tat thou.. haih =/ hope this H1N1 stuff finish fast.. zzzz


Random

this stuff jus came across my mind randomly =P well umm.. as i see some couples broke up after along holiday.. i dont get it.. almost every couples i knew they broke up during the holiday.. as far as i see only evelyn and hong yan get along very well.. no doubt for them :] hmm.. tats all la.. lazy write.. ehheh

Friday, August 14, 2009

Okay Let me make this fast , parents yelling ady...

Monday's Gonna be the Indonesian Independents Day...

Its the 64th year that Indonesia Is Independents






im Just gonna say... Happy 64th Independents Day =)

Monday, August 10, 2009

Holiday Mission =P

A month holiday... Hmmm... i can change alot =P lol


First thing : Grow Taller
- Drink Milo before sleep (night) after wake up from afternoon nap & morning..

Second thing : Stay the same weight 4.4 kg =PP lol

Third thing : to forget abt sum1 T.T but emm just 50% succeed T___T

forth thing : To Sleep early b4 i get tat stupid pimples on my face again =P ><



tats all i think =P

Friday, July 24, 2009

Last Day of Year 9 :'(




Today is the last day of year 9.. It was great at school tdy ;) took lots of picture with friends who r leaving n teachers as well.. D: sad case.. From my class : Shion Beak, Abdallah, Kevin Koo =( I'm so gonna miss u guys T_T and teachers : Mrs Leong.. :( Im gonna miss you.. && thx for teaching me English =D i improve!! ^^ he he..

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Shion Beak : Thx for being a good friend to me.. I'm sure gonna miss you lots.. Thx for letting me write on shirt tdy =PP lol... && sumday im gonna show u tat i can solve the Rubik's cube =D he he.. Take care in your new school.. ;) see you..




Abdallah: Sup Pro football player? =) thx for the jokes you tell us & Ur bullies =.= hahha.. have a save journey to Saudi Arabia thn =) OH. & u betta keep the secret ;)lol.. um take care thn.. =D see you.... ^^

Kevin Koo: hey Bro!! =) ummm umm.. thx for ur silly jokes =P lol haha... & hope to see you again.. good luck in ur studies.. Have a save journey to New York ;)Take Care ;) ^^



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uhh yea.. This term result seriously rox man~ no "U" at all...


English - C
Malay - A
Mathematics - E
Science - D
Geography - C
History - D
Ict - D



damn hyper nw man =P && probably getting new laptop ;)

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Cameron Highland Leadership Camp

On 9th to 10th of May 2009 the senior students guided by Mr. Louis, Mr. Francis, Mr. Wong, Ms Aun Lih and Mrs. Alegan went to Cameron Highland for Leadership Camp. This is my first experience going out for a leadership camp in Malaysia.


Day 1
The day we have been waiting arrived and we depart for Cameron Highland at 8:15 a.m. by bus. We first stop at Brinchang for some food. Than at 10:30 a.m. we arrive at our hostel, Barre IJ Center. The girls are in (4get the name =P )Dorm and boys are in Hibiscus Dorm. Next we have a Leadership Reflection – “The Power of One”. We watch some videos which reflected on the power of one. Then we have Team Building Activities, the leader came out with some games such as Truth or Dare, etc. We had one game which we have to go to the opposite sex and say “honey, I love you, Please smile” and if the person of the opposite sex didn’t smile, she/he has to say back “Honey, I love you too, but I just can’t smile”. Or if the person smiles, the person have to do it to other person. It’s really fun playing this game. Next we had lunch. After having lunch, we went to the Tea Estate. The road going to the Tea Farm is so risky. We went around and had some food and drinks in “ Tea-Ria“. Then we went back to the hostel and get some rest. Spent most of the 2 hours at the hall. Most of us enjoy playing some card games, listening to songs, playing guitar, talk on the phone or talk. At 6:30 p.m. We have another Team Building activities. Then only we have our Dinner. After dinner we have another Leadership Reflection – “The Power of The Dream”. Hong Yan, Melanie, Nikika, Shion Beak are in my group. We do about Charles . The weird thing is that I didn’t feel nervous at all. While usually I feel really nervous to present something or talk in front of many people. We went out for supper. It’s really cool that in the bus, there are blue lights on. I’m like “WOW! Awesome!” Chee Wai starts to play a song on his iPhone, “Right Round”. And I don’t know who start to sing it and end up everyone singing it. It’s fun though. We reach our destination, end up going to night market as most of us wanted to go to night market. Well, this is my first time going to a night market; usually I wouldn’t be allowed to go. Bought something for my sister too. Then we went back to the hostel for Overnight stay. All of us went to the hall, as usually. We stay in the hall until 12 p.m. If I’m not mistaken. The girls end up sleeping at 2 something.


Day 2
Ms. Aun Lih wakes us up at 6:30 a.m. We get ready for the Jungle Tracking. We had our breakfast at 8 a.m. At 8:30 we had our Jungle Tracking. We go to Mount Jasar. Going up the mountain wasn’t that adventures for me. But we had a tragedy, I don’t know who bother the wasp hives and cause more than 3 people injured. For going down the mountain we use another way which is longer than the way we went up. It is more adventures. There are lots of landslides. We kind of have to slide down. I’m lucky that I bring another extra shoes. After a long 5 hours walk we finally finish the Jungle Tracking. When we get back to the hostel, all of us quickly get clean. Then we pack our things and go to the bus to put our bags. We had lunch before we check-out. We stop at flower market in Brinchang. I went to the Strawberry farm with some other friends. End up only buying flower for mother’s day. Then only we depart for Ipoh. We arrive safely at Ipoh around 6:30 p.m. Everyone was tired but happy that we had such a good time together. I'm looking forward for the next Leadership Camp ;)

Saturday, July 11, 2009

..... (This is not directed at anyone specifically)

This is not directed at anyone specifically.

I have no one in mind while I am writing this.

I was simply thinking about my past.
I was simply thinking about my present.
I was simply thinking about my future.

To me, it is plain and simple.
If you like me, don’t just sit there and do nothing about it.

I want to be adored, is that so wrong?
I want you to make me smile.
I want you to want me
I want you to know me.
I want you to want me to know you.
…all of it … the good, the bad, the ugly.

I am tired of people saying they want to spend time with me and then don’t do shit about it.
I am tired of people telling me they want to know me and when I say something that shocks or surprises them, they wish they never knew ( and believe me, nothing I could say is that shocking).

Hence, the goal.

I want to fall in real love:

ridiculous,

inconvenient,

consuming,

can’t live without each other



love.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Graduation Night, Production & SleepOver ;')

3 big days in a row..!!! =D



Graduation Night...


The Graduation Night is held on Friday 12/6/09. I have to arrive at Heritage Hotel at 3 p.m. But end up arriving 30 minutes earlier... Wait for Melanie at least 10 minutes... Then came Regine... Directly when to the hall to find out which room are we going to... We had our makeup at Meeting Room 2... anyway, Hong Yan, Melanie, Jasmin, Regine, Anushka, Dasom, Emily, Nikika, Shion Beak, Mae and I are involved in fashion show on that day. Finished making up at 5 sumthing I guess... Than when to chance our dress... had few practice of the cat walk on the stage... 1st two people who came is Kevin and Jia Jun... They arrive real early... After we had our practice, we took some pictures... I wasn’t in the picture... I was too "BUSY" with my high heels... We went back to the meeting room 2 to wait for our “Cat Walk”... It’s kind of long waiting for our turn... My designer/for making up ask me to take a picture with her... Took 3 times I think. Time passes, it’s our turn now... I’m kind of nervous. We went in to the ballroom, there’re kind of many people who attend the Graduation Night. First people I saw, Jonathan, than Maverick and etc... But luckily when we went to the stage, I wasn’t that nervous anymore =) I do everything what Alex (who teach the cat walk) told us to do... but when the single part, I turn the wrong way =.=” Never mind, at least I try my best. Than we had to change our dress to our own dress. Then we go to our table. I’m in Table 12 anyway =) I enjoyed it a lot.. The party stared on 9 smtng i guess... It's really AWESOME!!! I’m looking forward for next year’s Graduation Night, Thank You Mrs. Leong and Mrs. Wong for giving me a chance to join the cat walk =) its like once in a life chance xD





Production


The next day we have our Production =)

umm.. okay,,, our class do " Jump Tussel".. i duno who make tat name thou.. bt kinda cool =P hahah..

our class presentation is umm kinda near wif the last part =P Mrs Ign told me ( cz she sits beside me xP)




to be continue... =PP

Friday, April 24, 2009

ATTENTION!!!! garhhh >=D

Gosshhh many people mistaken something which is absolutly NOT TRUE!! Yea, its true that i'm real real real close with Kevin... but it seriously doesn't means that we're together.. =.= pfft ><>=D thats just soo stupid! REAL STUPID!! wouldn't you feel annoyed too when people do that to youuuuu????? I'm sure you do... soo yea, before do anything THINK TWICE!!!! I just hate people doing that..


(Kevin, no offence.. I just write what i don't like abt it...)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Happy Birthday Hunter!

Happy Birthday Hunter!!!





haha











Hope you like the present =)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Yesterday cross country was good... This year cross country not that tiring tho.. haha..
Great!! one f my friend cheated me.... she ask me to stop bt then she splint fter i stop.. funny!!! So yea, i got after her.. =.=... But at least i improve a lot.. last time i got 35 mins... yday i got 23 mins.. ahha..
yea!! =PPP
lol
Oh n at least i got one gold medal like last year... -again- =.=






Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Sports

Yeah!!! We won the netball... JUPITER u rock!!!! haha! tdy i din play act... lazy play... jz playing around =PP ahha... well at least i gt cheer for jupiter.. haha.. =) oh n wow!! tmrw's the cross country... yEah!! and im gonna walk for 2 round n run for 1 round... =PP same as wat i did in p.e =PP lol!!

Friday, March 27, 2009

Sports =.= (tired much)

Phew this week seriously tiring....

Monday we start the netball game... 1st game between Neptune and Mercury... emmm i think its 19-9, if im not mistaken... whatever the score is, Neptune won lah... thn game 2 between mars and JUPITER... jupiter lost like hell man!!! i dunno y suddenly mars become soooo strong!!! And its hard to block ema and inbba... both siblings super good!!! =.= Mrs Wong didn't expect our hse to lose that bad... so thn she scold Yii Ting(captain) and Abbe(vice)...



Wednesday JUPITER and Mercury... wow..! its like unbelievable.. We beat mercury 15-5.. I'm like wow!! Awesome!! Abee and Yii Ting shot everything... 0.o Lucky the mercury ppl put mealanie in the last game to be the shotter.. otherwise, we're dead man... haha! LUCKY!! =D


Then emmm i dunno about today... but its between Mars and Neptune... Emm Mars who won anyway... emm that means Jupiter's with Neptune on monday T.T








GO JUPITER!!!!

Friday, March 20, 2009

netbal

Yday's really FUN!!! we had our netball practice until 4:30 cz heavy rain....
I play on the rain.... hehe... all wet... shoes, cloths,hair, evrything... ;P

Oh and Monday, the tournament start..

game 1: Mercury vs Neptune 4:00-5:00

game 2: Jupiter vs Mars 5:00-6:00

wow... until 6 =.=













JUPITER ROX!!!~

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

HuiZen a.k.a MENTAL ISSUE!!!!
Pauline a.k.a slapper =P
lol.....




1st case...

Hz push my head real hard and call me mental issue...!!! ><" && i hit him back at his back...

2nd case....

I hit Hz n the arm.. && PAULINE SUDDENLY SLAP ME!! >.<" & yea it kinda hurt... ---- Pauline,,, U'll gonna get it tmr!!! >=D hahah!





hahah...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Happy Birthday

Kevin Koo Happy belated bday!! 8.3.09

emmmm... let see.. well, i have a great time on monday in jj! ='D

&& hope u like the
glass chess set =)





Jefferson, Happy Birthday!! 15.3.09

Happy Birthday to you!! Well, i noe u wouldn't read my blog...
haha... watever... juz wishing you.. && no present for you!! =PP
lol

wow... its been two weeks havent update my blog.... emm well cz internet cacated... =/

at least nw it's okay ady.. =]
haha...

Yday i was on duty for Jr sport day..
I'm in Ass. Team Manager..
Tell u wat.. it suck alot!!! we're like baby sitting lil kids..
(no offense =P ) my partner's Ashwini..
Well, i remmeber some lil kids name...
ofcourse the naughty one.. =P lol.. we got free foods tho.... =).
I was really late, & i hv to run to the other office for my name tag =.=
they start from 7:50 sumthing til 10 am...
WTH?! they told us its until 12pm =.="
I've got no choice, so yea, stay back until 12pm..
Well, at least there's someother ppl there..
got to play basketball too! ;) Havent play in quite some time..
hehe...











Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Old FrienD... =)

WOOOOOO...... yesterday wassss soo fun!!!!! at last... i got my goody friend hp num... and we're like smsing a lot...
thats the 1st time i sms soo much in a day to a friend...
he's still funny & fun to talk to....
ntg much different...
emmm yea.. now he's wayy much taller thn me... :(
emmm 170... and i'm 155... =(
lol..
watever..
boys wattttt =P
lol!!!




&& i got back my Multimedia Player.. =]
I'm like waiting for 4 months... :P hha!!....
At last.... wat a great week! i've to say ;)

BITCH!!!!!! >=D

OKAY... THIS's abt emmm say 2 bitches...!
1 bitch that stab ppl from back...
&& keep talking abt sex and many other fucking stuff!!!
another bitch... its juz bcz she's _ _ _ _ _...........
&& everyone like her...
WTF??! NOT FOR ME, MARYAM & MY SIS!!!
Its jz tat she's _ _ _ _ _...... SOOOO WATTT dudE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck Yall Off!!
or emmm...
more polite words...
GET LOST!!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Exam....

Exam's over yday.... okay.. some paper are easy and some super hard!

lets see....
Math 100% fail
Science 50% fail
BM 100% pass
ICT - duno yet... still have the practical test...
History 50% fail
English - i duno :P
Geography 70% fail



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Pray!

Heyyy people out there.... please pray for one of my kbsm 2 friends grandfather... He got a heart attack and now he's still in ICU.. At least pray for him so tat he'll conscious fast.. THX THX! =)

Friday, February 20, 2009

Happy Early Bday Wish Stupid Lil Bro! ^^ - 22 . 2

Wei Wen a.k.a Chicken! =P

Happy 14th Bday!!!!!!! (so young man!) =P





Haha anyway, dun forget belanja me after exam!!!!!

Or else no present for u! haha! =P



TC!!!!

LA LA LA LA! ;P

bla bla bla

tdy i have to wake up sumone for emmm choco! ;) haha! && guess what after i wake him up and so wateva... he forget to bring the choco >=D dum dum opa! so old de mhe? ahha!




random

its just soo random... i go toilet whn science class.. & i saw silke n her 2 other friend... Well. ofourse i say "HI" to her... thn suddenly her friend say.. "are you hillary?" and i'm like yea... i ask her "you le?" she say.. "I'm Kosuke's sister" I'm like ok ok.. i din even know her.. nvr talk to her in msn,facebook or watever... WEIRD~!



Exam
Gosh! Exam's coming in just few days.. i din even touch my book yet.. Arghh... i can't really study.. i srsly gt a bad headache! =//

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

SICK!!! =/

Worse! i've been eating porridge for the past 2 weeks. Well cz i got mouth infection.. and it suck a lot!! after a day without porridge, my teeth hurt and i have to eat PORRIDGE again! GREAT! =/ but this time more worse tthn before.. my tteth's hurt, i srsly got a bad headache, my leg's hurt and my stomach hurt too... I'm like say what?? everything hurt.. :( well the teeth n headache is worse... i sleep durring badminton tdy.. & english class n history.. tat's the first time i sleep during class... i just can't stand the headache n my teeth... darned!! =[

Friday, February 13, 2009

I'm Just A Little Too Not Over You

The song "A Little Too Not Over You" by David Archuleta best represents my current mood. I've known you since I was 13. I was only in Year 8 that time. I was still childish. But when I saw you, you took my breath away. Yes, you were leng zai. I can’t stop thinking of you. Thanks to my bro for not signing out in msn. At first, I keep wondering what you think about me. What is your first impression when you first know me? It was nice to chat with you in msn messenger and sms, you were just so friendly that time. That's what that made me like you more. But after we break up, you weren’t as friendly as before. You ignore me when I pass you which resulted to our friendship is dying as every minute pass. Yes, I know its my mistake for too shy talking to you. I admit! I was sad but angry at myself for not trying to 'repair' this friendship. I miss how we use to talk, I miss everything we did! When I see you, I try to hide what I feel inside and pretend that I’ve moved on! I wish I got to know you better. I wish life was easier and less complicated. But just like my friend say, karma exist and it really happens. Karma means something that you did in your past life to someone else and is now happening to you. You need not believe this karma thing but I kinda do. Karma causes complications in life but at times, it causes happiness too. And lastly, I really hope that your life is much better than mine and I hope that you'll find a girl that you really love [which I think you already have] I hope I'll find my very own prince too.